All around Christchurch at the moment there’s a lot of “deconstruction” going on. The removal of damaged buildings and structures to clear the land for rebuilding the new. It’s heart-breaking seeing buildings that have been part of my cityscape for decades being stripped out and torn down.
Photo supplied by Deb Donnell, author of Cafe Reflections on Christchurch City 1975-2011. Find out more at http://CafeReflectionsBooks.com/.
Photo: Christchurch City Libraries
I think that’s also a bit of a metaphor for how I’m feeling. A part of my psyche has been damaged in some way, and has been “deconstructed” in a rather sudden, violent way on 22 February 2011.
As I travel around my city I see too many empty spaces where there used to be something. Too many times I look at the gap and struggle to remember what used to be there.
There’s also something inside me that feels like an empty gap, and I can’t remember what used to be there. All I know is the hollow feeling that a part of me is missing.
http://www.gapfiller.org.nz/ has been working hard putting something creative into the empty spaces in the city, with ideas like:
And in Cashel Mall, where my world crashed down around me and changed my life, what looked like this:
Photo: Dean Norrie at www.starphotographers.net
Photo: Booksellers New Zealand
After a bit of this:
now looks like this:
Photo: Malcolm Locke
What was “dead” has now been resurrected into a new, vibrant life.
So for myself, 2012 will be the year I rebuild emotionally, rebuilding Hope, Faith and Life into what will hopefully be a new, improved me.
(Edit 19/1/2012: Photo from Dean Norrie added)